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It’s only impossible if you stop and think about it — Pirate Captian, Pirates! Band of Misfits.
“Oh, my friend, it’s not what they take away from you that counts. It’s what you do with what you have left” -Hubert Humphrey
This will be brief, as I really should be getting to bed soon. I’m just writing to let you know, I’ve withstood the storm. I put more effort into getting my moods to even out, and it worked. Although, I’m sure it’s no coincidence that I didn’t muster the strength to fight hard enough to get passed this until after the solstice. The last week and a half has gone very well. I’ve fixed my sleep schedule, gotten into a good exercise routine, and picked up working on my hobbies. Overall things are going well, and so far there’s been no more unexpected tragedies.
It was a rough few months, but this year went better than last year. I was able to bounce back from my annual trip into insanity much more quickly. I’ve also made plans to be better prepared next year: flu shot, more vitamin C and taking it easy with the light box. I’m optimistic next year things will go better than this year, and eventually with enough practice, I’ll be able to be just as stable in the winter as I am in summer.
One of the nice things about bipolar is that as long as you keep fighting and moving forward, eventually your moods will pick up. =)
I never in all my walks came across a man engaged in so simple and natural an occupation as building his house — Henry David Thoreau, Walden
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It’s been so long since I wrote. And it may be just as long before I write again. I believe I’ve already informed you that my mood swings get worse during winter, because I’m dependent on the sun to manage my moods and struggle with the shorter days. It’s called Seasonal Affective Disorder, and it’s pretty common in bipolar people. I’ve been using a lightbox to try to keep my moods from falling. It worked, but unfortunately went too far in the other direction causing me to be manic for the last couple of weeks. My anxiety also got much worse, and I had a return of psychosis and paranoia more severe than I’ve had to deal with in years. It made doing simple things like leaving my apartment massive undertakings.
Needless to say I stopped using the light box and have been waiting to settle. This week I’m finally settled. My head is quiet, and I can think clearly for the first time in weeks. So for now I’m okay, but I’m uncertain what will happen next. It’s still 2 weeks until the days start getting longer. And months until I usually recover from this. WiIl my moods crash again or skyrocket? If they crash, and I use the light at a lesser dose will it work or will this just hapen all over? I’m trying not to worry to much for now, and just enjoy this calm, but I have a suspicion the worst isn’t over.
PS I’ve actually written 2 letters to you on paper, but haven’t gotten around to transcribing them. If this calm lasts maybe I’ll get to it this week.
Imagine if you had suddenly learned the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse… they had never been. What kind of a hell would that be? — A Beautiful Mind (via per-ceive)
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Life is more fun when you aren’t afraid to be the first person to start dancing.
that’s bug, our cat. he is missing. help us find him!
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